I know what you’re thinking – that chasing rabbits is immature. The domain of boys and men pretending to be relevant and attractive to 20-year-old women. I’m not a woman so I can only offer two perspectives – that borne of knowing (sort of) what goes on in my own head and that of my observations of others (admittedly filtered through my own head which makes it mine…so that’s really just one perspective).
Unless you’re constantly surrounded by riders significantly more able than you and particularly if, like me, you ride 99.9% of the time alone, you begin to develop delusions of your ability. I often find myself thinking “yeah – that’s right, I did just pass you like that, because I can”, while completely ignoring that they’re pushing their bike with a flat tire, thereby reinforcing my imaginary super-cyclist powers. My favourite though is to be howling along the path with a wicked tailwind while watching all of the on-coming cyclists suffering, struggling mightily to keep above a jogging pace as their headwind acts like molasses. This really inflates one’s illusory talent.
So with all of this pent-up talent inside, it’s only natural that I would want to find another rider and pass them. In the beginning I was content to ride down anyone and took great pleasure in the pass irrespective of the age or condition of the rider. Of course not being able to catch the rider towing a two-child trailer up a hill…that’s not something we need to re-visit. Or visit. Where was I? Oh yes, chasing rabbits. As my condition has improved over the summer, passing riders who aren’t trying has lost its reward. I still try (well duh – they’re on a bike, I’m on a bike, they’re in front of me – who wouldn’t try?) to catch and pass them, but when I pull up beside them and notice they’re wearing a heavy wool trench coat, their high-heels and are riding a Townie it’s not the win I was looking for. Unless they’re all sweaty and out of breath. Hey – a wolf doesn’t pass up a meal just because the rabbit is missing a leg. Not that I’m a wolf…
With the cooler weather comes the dwindling traffic thereby causing an increase in the percentage of more serious riders. This means fewer opportunities, but better chases. I’m still not certain that I passed Bearded Single Speed legitimately because he finally cracked or if he simply didn’t want to ride beside me any farther. Of these more serious riders, I routinely see two women, always going the opposite direction to my own. Given their velocities I suspect I wouldn’t catch them if we were travelling in the same direction and that they would catch and drop me with relative ease.
One in particular who, for reasons I can’t fathom, reminds me of an acquaintance I met when we hired her to work our motorcycle booth during the Stampede. Taisa rides but recently left town thereby removing the last 1% of possibility it was her. When I see this unknown-yet-familiar rider, she is always riding hard and fast – determined.
Which brings me to my point…finally. I was fighting my way home in the omnipresent headwind the other day trying to talk myself into finding some positive benefit to it (the wind, not the ride). I’d earlier passed one of the aforementioned casual riders but had had the path to myself and my wandering mind for the bulk of things. As I approached the Trans Canada, a rider appeared coming towards me in full tuck, in the drops and pedaling furiously with full advantage of the tailwind and I was immediately envious. I took this all in within the split-second it took for her to appear. Right on his wheel.
You’re probably asking yourself how I knew she was on his wheel rather than having just been passed. Two things. First, the path at that point is a blind, slightly uphill S-bend with a relatively narrow path and a fence on either side. Second, she had a heretofore unseen gigantic grin on her face. If he’d passed her on that bend, it would have been a totally uncool move by all measures and she would not have been smiling. No – that was the enormous, predatory grin of a successful hunt. The grin of a predator who knows the kill is at hand and the prey theirs despite their thrashing about. It was, in the purest of moments and expressions, everything that hunting rabbits is all about.
The chase is not a male thing at all. It’s a for-those-with-drive thing. It’s awesome.
As I rode home yesterday, I passed a couple of cyclists, one in a trench coat who was so surprised when I passed that I think he almost fell off of his bike. He was weaving left and right across the center of the path like a drunk, which from the slurred exclamation of surprise as I passed, he likely was.
This lead me to the realization that although I have ridden over 2200km this year so far, I have never been passed, I have never had a truly rewarding hunt, I have never had to go all out for that slim chance of the pass before a turn off, I have never had that cold feeling of defeat of someone stalking me from afar. I am sure that riding at 5am and 3pm does play into this as it really isn’t prime riding time for most people, but it is still strangely disappointing, or perhaps unfulfilling.
With the (or at least my) riding season coming to a close (This morning’s -2 showed that I have a lack of finger and toe protection from cold, I will ponder and remedy this over the weekend), I desire the hunt. Or perhaps just an insurmountable challenge.